Haha, to be completely honest nothing. I wash it in the shower with dove soap and that’s about it.

Of course

I miss you a lot :(

The worst part is, im not even sure. we we’re perfect.. so close, and so far ahead in our relationship. he meant so much to me and all of a sudden, we were over. things went from good to gone.. i didn’t stop crying for days, and i didn’t get out of bed. i refused to. my family was worried and  they continued to stay strong for me, but i pushed them away. when we got back from break, we sat next to eachother in class and everything was how it should be again. then later that day, my bestfriend died. he came running to comfort me, and things got better between us.. better then ever, actually. i promised myself not to be so dependent if he ever came back but with the situation i couldnt help but to be. then out of no where, he didnt want a relationship because of football and its going to be his senior year next year, he didnt want to have to say goodbye then. so we havent talked, and hes moving on fine without me. and i never thought i would see that beautiful smile of his and have the feeling of a knife going through my stomach. because its only the worst feeling ever to know he’s happy without me.  i havent shared how i truly feel with anyone else, im that girl who puts on a smile every single day and pretends shes okay.